Nosson was a one-of-a kind Bochur who influenced many people, from all ages and backgrounds. He had a perpetual smile on his face and an extremely generous heart. He would do the biggest favor for a friend with only a moment’s notice. All those who knew him feel they had a unique relationship with him.
There are many untold stories of his selflessness, kindness, and the affect he had on countless lives. Please share your story, so that others can get a glimpse into his unique character and towering accomplishments.
Friday, December 24, 2010
Whilst I was in San Diego helping a Shliach for Rosh Hashana and Yom Kippur, I thought it was the opportune time to go see the city of L.A., to personally observe the great spectacle so often spoken about. When I arrived, my dear friend Nosson kindheartedly took me on a personal tour. He excitingly explained to me the all the great demonstrations of the 21st century, even caring to meticulously point out anything which was acute to my own aesthetic feelings.
When my long and strenuous day came to an end, I realized that I had not originally planned to stay anywhere. I said my thanks and goodbye to Nosson, thinking that I would settle down to an uncomfortable nights sleep in the car.
But Nosson was ahead of my game. He turned to me and adamantly asked me to stay for the night. Knowing there were no extra beds I politely declined. But he happily yelped at me “don’t be crazy! You'll sleep in my room! The guys are Farbrenging, so you can take one of their beds!” I exclaimed that I didn't feel comfortable sleeping in a bed belonging to someone unknown to me. So he gently smiled and asked me if me I felt homey enough sleeping in his bed! I couldn’t and would not think of it, knowing that he would probably not find another bed for himself to sleep on. But he was unrelenting, saying that he could easily find another one to sleep on and it was a non issue for him. Seeing how much it meant to him I gave in and stayed the night.
I'm still uncertain where he slept that night.
This is only one story of the many that I could think of about Nosson. They are all about self sacrifice and altruistic motives. I miss him dearly and I pray for his return.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
לכבוד משפחת דייטש שיחיו
Eli Leib Rubin
Sunday, November 14, 2010
This moitzei shabbos, I went on collive.com and to my shock I saw the untimely passing of yet another deitsch. I was shocked. How could this happen again? I remember about 2 weeks after lag baomer, I was reading one of those weekly lchaim pamphlet and the slice of life column was about our dear nosson. As I read a few things about his remarkable character, I was deeply touched and moved - especially by his unseen ahavas yisroel and the fact that he knew the whole Tanya by heart! That night, I checked on collive for his nosson deitsch, OBM, 21 and I actually felt the intense pain of the commentators. I also discovered this blog so I went on and spent the whole night (not kidding, 'till 7:00 AM) reading and crying my eyes out! Also, i was gathering inspiration; Nosson's unique personality is something that I have never seen before in my life and I marvel at how a person can be so full of good and joyfulness. It puts things into petspective, a lot! For me, nosson epitomizes the essence of what a chossid is and what is right. I cried that night because I wondered how hashem could do this to us and shatter so many peoples minds (including my own, even though I never had the zechus to meet him). I decided that if everyone nosson knew would take something on, it would at least make this crazy time a little worthwhile, so right then and there, I wrote an email to Chabad.org asking them to make the mitzva campaign like they did for the Holtzbergs a"h. They told me it was a very nice letter but nothing came out of it. The reason I'm writing all this is because now, lets make our own campaign and BREAK THE GATES OF HEAVEN OPEN WITH OUR MITZVOS cuz' this overly messed up golus has got to end!! I guess I'm leaving the details of this campaign up to the heads of this blog (even though I'd be glad to help- you have my email) but it should definately be leleui nishmas nosson notah Ben zalmen yuda a"h v' Levi yitzchok Ben zalmen yuda a"h. Nosson would have for sure jumped to do something like this and help so many yidden to get closer to their tiere tatte in shomayim.
Just to add, since I heard about him, nosson has been my role model and if was/am ever not sure what to do in a situation, I think to myself, "what would nosson do?" i always know what to di then- what the rebbe wants and what would do and make hashem proud.
He has made a HUGE impact on my life (which is something pretty crazy since I never even met him- but apparently I'm not the first one to be so inspired:) and he is responsible for many of the mitzvos and workings on my character, as well as extra ahavas yisroel, simcha in everything, etc... I actually took on today to learn the english of Tanya chitas for the next thirteen weeks (and will iy"h will continue). He also inspired me to write to the rebbe more often and to be a better chossid. Thank you nosson! May we merit to see him again with Moshiach NOW!!!!!!!!!! (nosson! Bang on those gates for us in a way that only you know how!)
Have a gr8 day!!!
Thursday, November 4, 2010
You left this world just a short while ago on lag ba'omer. It's a day that will always remind me of you and what you represent to me. I never knew you and until your passing, I didn't even know of you. But now I know of you well and of joy that was a part of you. I watched a favorite video of you in which you are dancing while others are standing stiff abd erect. That's what you stand for. You show how the time and place for simcha is every time and every place. Every time I try to smile een though I don't rly feel like it, I feel an instant connection to you. I feel as if I am helping you do what you would have been doing if you were down here with us physically. To me you will forever be a symbol of true joy and knowing that makes me feel more and more of an urge to actually meet you. Nosson I am sure that you are up in heaven at gods torn asking and beseeching of hashem to bring moshiach now so that you can reunite with all those whom you left behind and so that you can once again spread joy to every place and every person.
Hoping to see you soon with the immediate coming of moshiach.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
It has been over 4 months and I have not been able to sit down and put anything on paper. However, now that we have a baby Nosson in the family (weird as it may sound but Hashem runs the world) it’s time to gather my thoughts and my strength to put ink to parchment. Yankel and I have a special relationship with all our nieces and nephews. They are all a part of our lives; a part of what we do. We try to include all of them in all the adventurous activities we do. I taught Nosson how to water-ski, an accomplishment he was extremely proud of. He managed to come by every summer to Sackett Lake from wherever he was. If he was in camp, it was on his day off with a car full of fellow staff members. He was never alone. His friends became our guests for the day. That was Nosson. For many summers, Nosson would try to put on Tefillin with one of our neighbors. Yossi tried, Nosson Ezagui tried, yet, the neighbor always had an excuse. This fellow was obstinate when it came to tefillin. This year, however, Yossi and Asher Chaim (Nosson’s cousins) asked him and he immediately said yes. I’m telling you, Nosson was doing something up in Shamayim to accomplish this. Nosson, you’re doing mivtzoim from up there!!!
Nosson, your laughter, your comments on life, your stories of the people you met on mivtzoim, you’re joking with your siblings are all a memory now.
I remember the first Friday night you joined your older brother in chazering a maamir; how proud you were to join the ranks; the gleam in your father’s eye that you reached that level. And of course the smile on your mother’s face that you were one of the boys.
You were always so observant of life. You would always call your mother on a daily basis to make sure she was alright. You knew the latest and best phone model before they were available in the stores; the newest computer she should buy. You were her technical adviser. You could take any situation, analyze it, and find the good to comment on. If your siblings needed you on Yom Tov, you were there before they finished their sentence. We will all miss that positive attitude you exuded as well as your presence.
Your father A”H always managed to find a hint about Moshiach in every Parsha. Some Parshas have them out in the open, while others have them hidden where you must search thoroughly for them.
Please help us find Moshiach now…out in the open.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Its been a long 4 and a half months. I have cried and choked endless times, and I get emotional and try not to talk about it, but i think it might be time.
I knew Nosson on a personal level having called him and him calling me, farbrenging and laughing, making fun of each other. learning and bull-shoving.
I have to say I have tremendous memories, fun times and erenste times, but what will become of all our memories ?
A memory in it itself has no true value, it has no meaning, and it makes no difference if it lasts or not. The only true value of such memories is what we do with them, if we take it or a (part of it) to heart, cry about it, or laugh about it but do something to make that a lasting memory. ingrain it in yourself take it to a "Pnimius" it wont just be another memory of a best friend it will be a lebedike nosson inside of you.
Like the rebbe explains "Benoigia" the frierdiker rebbe that the way that he is bachaim is through "Zaroi bachaim" zaroi being his talmidim.
let us too take a memory apply it learn from it you have the power tzu machen nosson far a lebediker!
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Nosson and I had a great connection the minute we met in the Chabad Yeshiva in Staten Island. I live a few minutes away and daven in that shul. When the Chabad Yeshiva moved in, in its first year, I met Nosson the first day. He was so charming, warm, kind and easy going that we immediately clicked.
I looked forward to coming home from high school each day to chazer Tanach or Gemara which I learned in school that day. No matter what he was doing at the time, he always made himself available to help me out and teach me Torah. He learned with such an amazing superhuman enthusiasm, such that I had never seen previously in my life. It inspired me so much that during shiur each day I was able to pay close attention to my Rebbi and get involved in the discussions. I would tell my friend's about this wonderful new friend of mine from Crown Heights, who they had to meet, I guaranteed them that they've never seen a true Yeshiva Bochur who was this cool and outgoing.
Nosson's energy and internal fire for Torah and Kiruv penetrated even my most distant friends, they too started to come over my house, from Staten Island and Brooklyn just to be able to learn with him and get help with Gemara.
One shabbat I went to Philadelphia for a Bar-Mitzvah and I happened to be hosted by Nosson's brother Shaya. He treated us with such hospitality and warmth. When he told me he was Nosson's brother, I realized that the Chassidus personality of generosity, kindness and humbleness is in the family genes. From then on Nosson and I had a closer connection.
I remember the nights he would walk me back home from yeshiva and we would talk in Chassidus, Gemara, Hashkafa and general life issues. He gave me Chizzuk when I needed it, he introduced me to Chassidus and its pious way of life it entails, he taught me how accept all types of people I encounter, and most importantly he taught what a true chassid is. Nosson did not merely say he was a Lubavitcher, he lived and breathed the Rebbe's teachings, he thrived on performing the chessed and kiruv which the Rebbe exemplified, he put his learning into practice; he lived a beautiful life of Chassidus.
For three years I had the Zechus to have a deep Kesher with Nosson and his family. He invited me to sleep at his house for Shabbat; which I will always remember. That Shabbat uplifted my soul to levels I had never reached before; I shtaiged more in those two days than any other two days of my life. Just his hospitality alone, which clearly he learned from his parents, made me feel so comfortable in a new neighborhood I had never been in before other than to visit 770 and the Rebbe's kever. I remember I was learning Masechet Berachot at that time; I was up to daf Dalet or so. I did not understand what David meant when he said "Chasid Ani", which the gemara goes on to explain to mean that David would wake up before all other kings and judge tedious cases of purity and civil cases. Nosson's father explained it to me so well. I think that memory fits Nosson's personality trait of zerizus, alacrity. He had the right, similar to that of David, to tell Hashem: "am I not a Chasid"; when most bochurim were sleeping Thursday nights Nosson would be learning with a full heart, when bochurim would be talking after shacharit, Nosson would eagerly volunteer to give the daily "Hayom Yom" from the Rebbe's teachings, when bochurim would be tired of delving into a sugya, Nosson would go deeper and deeper.
This past year Nosson and I reunited in Miami during a winter trip I took there. We had not seen one another in over four years; since he left Staten Island. I could not believe my eyes that Shabbat in the Chabad Shul on 41st street. I was seeing Nosson; I had never dreamed that I would see him there out of all people. We spent that shabbat learning and catching up on old times together. That reunification reignited a spark in me that had not been lit since the last time I saw him, over four years ago. I felt like a new person, a chiyus went through my body from the happiness I got from such a zechus to see Nosson. He memorized my phone number and called me after shabbat to set up a chavrusa for the rest of that year from back home in Staten Island. Low and behold, the rest of the year we would learn over the phone at night time. Sometimes even as late as one o' clock he was still in the mode to learn. Even over pesach when he was in virginia helping his brother out, he made time to learn with me.
He told me over sefirat haomer he was finishing masechet Sota at a pace of one daf a day. I asked him if it is hard to learn at such a fast pace, he replied that it isn't easy but he has seen it more than a few times so he is familiar. He did not want to make me feel bad so he admitted that he was mesayem many times already. On the day of his petira he was up to daf 34.
If I only knew that Hashem was going to take Nosson from klal yisrael, I would have taken advantage of the precious time I had with him. I did not comprehend how lucky I was to be a chaver of his until now. I did not fully realize what a zechus gantz klal yisrael had to have him Nosson on this earth with us for twenty one years, until now. I still do not fully understand his Gadlus, but I think I got a glimpse after seeing some of the memories people have of him.
I know Nosson is with Moshe Rabenu, Aharon, and all the gedolim, I pray that his zechus protect us and that he be a meilitz yosher in shamayim for yeshuos for all of us and the coming of Moshiach, b'miheira b'Yamenu
We will always remember you
Sunday, July 11, 2010
It's become a tradition of sorts, that every Motzei Shabbos during Melaveh Malka I visit this blog to read something about Nosson. It's my inspiration for the week ahead...a means of reminding myself that a chossid like this existed in our midst. Hashem knows it's high time to bring this chossid back...while we wait impatiently, another story, please?
Don't stop sharing stories, anecdotes, memories, and writings of Nosson. This blog is keeping chassidim alive.
Friday, June 25, 2010
“There was once a Chossid who lived in the city of Odessa. The Chossid traveled to his Rebbe and was received in Yechidus. The Rebbe asked him, “what’s happening in Odessa?” and the Chossid began to detail the wonderful spirit of unity that rested amongst the Chassidim there, their commitment to their regular study sessions and generally offered generous praise of their conduct. The Rebbe was very pleased with this news and enthusiastically bestowed on this Chossid special blessing.
Another Chossid who also dwelt in Odessa was also present. He – unlike his predecessor – decided to tell the Rebbe the whole truth… and indeed when the Rebbe interested himself in the affairs of Oddesa the Chossid told of the arguments and divisiveness, which were tearing at the Chassidic community, the lack of commitment to Divine service etc. It was apparent that the Rebbe was not enamored with the way he was speaking and the Rebbe blessed him somewhat coldly.
The Chossid didn’t understand, hadn’t he conducted himself in the best possible manner? Had he told anything less than the exact truth? Gathering all his courage, he asked, “Rebbe, my friend who entered previously did not answer truthfully, and yet the Rebbe treated him with warmth and encouragement. Why then does the Rebbe treat me, who told only the truth, with such disinterest and detachment?
Answered the Rebbe, “What is it that you fail to understand? What’s happening in Odessa I know myself, for that I have no need of anyone’s testimony. My question was not “what’s happening in Odessa”, but rather, “What’s happening with you?!”…”
This story was “a pearl in the mouth” of our friend Nosson Notte, and it would not be a mistake to say that this story clearly defines Nosson’s own personality.
For Nosson it didn’t make a difference where he was, amongst which friends he was with, or what kind of circumstances he happened to find himself – he always saw only the good aspects of the situation, the value and worth of each individual, that which was unique and special in the present moment or situation… essentially, he always found the good in everything. He is the one who is remembered by all of us, steadfast in his stance, like a live flame of fire, with that special enthusiasm that was unique to him – the one who set the tone and created an atmosphere.
The words of the Rebbe, “a Chossid macht a svivah” [“A chossid creates an atmosphere”] (“Hayom Yom” 30th Adar 1) defined his personality. For us, his friends and acquaintances, Nosson was the personification of the very concept of “liveliness”; the optimization of a Chossid and a Mekusher, who stands ready and prepared at all times; the one who could always be relied on to set the right tone in any situation.
It is not at all surprising that despite the full month that has passed since his absence from amongst us, we – his friends from all over the world – are not able to grasp our loss, it is only natural – for Nosson and the opposite of life, are essentially opposites…
Everyone knows that Nosson had an extra special enthusiasm for the study of Tanya, both in-depth study and the memorization and review of each word by-heart. More importantly, Nosson – by way of his unique personality – served as a living example of one who puts the Tanya’s teachings into practice, and most specifically in regard to the Tanya’s heart [the 32nd chapter, the Hebrew equivalent of 32 can be read as Lev, meaning heart] which teaches that “One shall love one’s fellow as yourself – each Jewish soul from the greatest to the least”.
In his short life Nosson invested every possible effort in an attempt to influence as many people as possible to learn and become fluent in Tanya, and especially to memorize Tanya by-heart. He merited that even after his soul ascended, hundreds and perhaps thousands of Yeshivah students throughout the world, were inspired in this regard, and thousands of pages of Tanya were committed to memory in his merit.
It is therefore only natural that we have chosen to honor his memory by publishing a collection of notes and explanations on Tanya, and we are certain that this will be a source of pleasure for his Neshomah.
We would like to take the opportunity to extend our blessings to the Deitsch Family, that from this day and on they should only hear of good and happy tidings, and they should only know of goodness and kindness forevermore.
May it be his will that we should immediately merit the coming of Moshiach Tzidkeinu “and those who lie in the dust will arise and rejoice” and Nosson will be amongst them, may it happen immediately.
The Shluchim of Yeshivas Ohr Elchonon Chabad, LA
19th of Sivan 5770 – thirty days since Nosson’s passing, and his birthday.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
א חבר ביסטו
TTTO: ניגון "יעלה תחנונו"
א חבר ביסטו, ביי אונז אזוי טייער
אונזער ליבשאפט צו דיר, איז דאך אין לשער
אז מען קען דיר נישט זען, גיט די הארץ א קרעכץ - "אוי וויי"
מען דארף טאן, ווי דו וואלטס, אין א מצב ווי דעם
מבצעים ביי דיר, אין דער פולען זין
ווי דער רבי וויל, צו יעדער איד
דער זשעבינער הארץ, מיט דעם ניגון געלעבט
באוויזען, ווער דו ביסט, אלץ מיט א ברען
נתן אוי נתן, דיין ליבשאפ צום איד
פונקט ווי א טאטע, מיט זיינער א קינד
ארום דיר איז יעדער, געווען, באקוועם
אזוי ווי א חבר, נאר מיט אים
נתן אוי נתן, טייער נתן - יו
מ' האט דיר גענומען, פון אונז אזוי יונג
אבער איין זאך איז זיכער, ס'איז נאר מיט דיין גוף
דיין שמייכל, לעבט נאך מיט אונז
מיט שקידה און התמדה האסט זוכה געווען
צום לימוד ג"ן פרקים, פון תניא בעל פה
א שטעמפל אויפן וועלט, האסטו געלאזט
דיין "זהיר בה טפי", אין דעם האסטו געקאכט
נתן אוי נתן, דיין ליבשאפ צום איד
פונקט ווי א טאטע, מיט זיינער א קינד
ארום דיר איז יעדער, געווען, באקוועם
אזוי ווי א חבר, נאר מיט אים
אבינו אב הרחמן, רחם עלינו
שיק שוין דער גואל, משיח צדקנו
והקיצו ורננו שוכני עפר
און נתן נטע וועט זיין בתוכם
נתן אוי נתן, טייער נתן - יו
מ' האט דיר גענומען, פון אונז אזוי יונג
אבער איין זאך איז זיכער, ס'איז נאר מיט דיין גוף
דיין שמייכל און הארץ, לעבט דאך ווייטער מיט אונז
Friday, June 11, 2010
I had a dream. It was right after nosson died, perhaps a few days had gone by. We were still reeling, still letting the news sink in, still enduring the raw pain. I went on long walks, just to try to get away, to clear my head of all the strong emotions clamoring inside. I drank with my friends, to try to express my feelings, to try to escape the reality. I just needed a moment of peace, a moment to return to reality, a moment in time when everything comes in to focus, when I can be at peace. And I couldn't find it. We were all wandering, all distraught and torn, I just felt so frustrated. I wasn't living a normal life.
So one night, just a few days after Nosson passed away, I retired to bed, more as an escape from the harsh reality of life than from fatigue. When I woke up, I didn't really take note of my surroundings, but it felt as if I had just walked in on a chassidishe farbrengen. To my surprise, who is standing there but Nosson! I went over to him, and with a big smile, he turned to me and gave me a powerful hug, so strong that it hurt. "Nosson, I knew you didn't really go," I exclaimed. "We all thought you were gone, you had me scared!" Nosson just grinned, and told me something to the effect that of course he is back, just like normal. I was standing there, just feeling so good, being reunited with Nosson.
Well, as I told you earlier, it was only a dream. But it was a real dream, which means that I thought it was reality when it was happening, and more importantly, when I woke up in the morning, as I was lying in bed too lazy to start my day, I recalled my dream, and knew, I just knew, that it wasn't just my overactive imagination that had conjured up Nosson, but that Nosson is still with us, still loves us, and hasn't left us. And I was at peace, because Nosson had come to say hello. Make what you want of the story, but you won't be able to convince me out of my conclusion. Trust me, I am perfectly sane. Nosson, thanks for stopping by.
Bais Chana Tzfas Seminary took apon themselfs to memorize the entire Lekutei Amarim Tanya Baal Peh L"IN Nosson Deitsch. B"H, together, they have almost completed the Tanya. May we only hear of Simchas, and merit to have Mashiach speedily in our times.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Nosson was a living example of a “Tanya Jew”, I therefore wish, to take you on a journey through the Tanya, to understand how to live the life of the “Tanya Jew”. Consequently we will understand Nosson’s wonderful invigorating way of life.
A crematorium operator at the Dachau holocaust camp preformed his job every day for 2 and half years. But one day he came home and shot himself. intriguingly it was not in remorse for his actions, as the note he left behind stated, on the day of his suicide, he arrived home from his job, and ostensibly a motorist ran over his poor little French poodle. Neighbors who witnessed the crime said that it was no accident. The driver purposely ran over the helpless dog! Shortly thereafter he wrote a note stating: that he could not continue to live in a world with such intensity of cruelty and insensitivity, and consequently he pulled the trigger!
Can humans comprehend the atrocities the Germans committed in WWII? No, it’s far from comprehension.
But this story could perhaps be analyzed and understood in a different light.
Sigmund Freud was an Austrian neurologist who founded the psychoanalytic method of psychiatry. Through his research he arrived at numerous unique theories, explaining the human psyche. Inquisitively Rabbi Shneur Zalman of Liadi, the author of the chassdic masterpiece, “The Tanya”. Arrived at analogous theories regarding the nature of the human psyche. In both their thesis’s they explain the build of the human mind.
Freud proposed that the human psyche could be divided into three parts, the super-ego, id, and ego which together form a psyche apparatus, repeatedly working different ways to channel ones activity and mental life.
The Alter Rebbe, called attention to two similar personalities in every Jew, The animalistic soul, and the G-dly soul. Which together form the conflict raging battle between the heart and mind.
Strikingly Freud’s id is similar to the animal soul mentioned in the Tanya. The id is the source of all psychic energy, and comprises the unorganized part of the personality structure. It contains the basic drives. It is amoral and selfish, ruled by the “pleasure principale”, always seeking direct gratification. Immature in its emotional growth it is persistently driven by the ‘Pleasure Principle’. The Tanya calls this immoral, self indulging soul the animalistic soul, it perceives no moral reason for virtues deeds if it counters its lust for pleasure, its whole intrinsic makeup is based on the logic of an animal, “if it will be fill my physical lust, then it is good, if it will oppose my indulgence of the physical luxury, it is not good for me.
Freud’s superego, which is similar to the Tanya’s G-dly soul. Is vis-à-vis the id. The superego aims for aptness, moral standards, and is our sense of right and wrong. It works to curb all unacceptable urges of the id and struggles to make the person perform idealistic standards rather that upon realistic integrity.… It is the inner voice of ‘shoulds’ and ‘should not’s. In Tanya, the G-dly soul is the ethical mind, wishing only what is morally correct, it represents the desire to do G-ds will, striving to be connected to above. The G-dly soul wishes to cleave to the divine. It wants nothing of personal gratification; it wishes to carry out its soul’s mission, to complete the ethical plan its divine creator had in store for it.
What distinguishes the Tanya’s view on from Freud’s can be understood from a story:
A person once complained to the Rebbe about the nature of people.
“From my encounters I have noticed that people can seem nice and charming at the outset. They may express concern for you, show interest in your life, and even openly admit that they love you! But if one digs just a little deeper than the outer surface – some require more digging than others – at their core everyone is exactly the same: selfish, arrogant, and egotistic. Why is this the nature of mankind?"
The Rebbe responded with a parable:
"When one walks on the street, thing often look so elegant and appealing: tall flowery trees, fancy houses, paved roads and expensive cars. But if one takes a hoe and begins digging beneath the surface, he discovers dirt and mud; nothing like the beautiful but 'deceptive' world above ground."
At this point the person was nodding his head in agreement, not fully realizing where this was going.
"But if he weren't to give up," the Rebbe concluded, "and would continue digging deeper, he would eventually encounter precious minerals and diamonds."
I have heard the saying “Where Freud dug and found mud, the Tanya dug and found gold”, (I’m not sure of the source). Yes Freud found the human psyche to be a raging battle, but to him under the brawl between the superego and the id, there is a more powerful force called the unconscious mind. Freud called dreams the "royal road to the unconscious". He believed that underneath the conscious reality of a person, one truly is a glutton; a person is fraudulent and corrupt, wishing only to gratify his ‘Pleasure Principle’.
Yes Freud “Dug and found mud”.
The Tanya on the other hand, teaches that though there may be an animalistic soul which whishes to indulge itself as an epicure in physicality, mans essence is the G-dly soul, we are born with an innate desire to act ethically. “Dig and you will find gold”, intrinsically and unconditionally every Jew wishes to do good, and fulfill G-ds desire.
The operator at the Dachau camp emulated Freud’s train of thought, at the essence of his core, he was and saw evil, and not being able to handle it he committed suicide.
Tanya on the other hand teaches how we Jews are in control of our thoughts, actions, and feelings. And though we constantly have a choice, to act either from the G-dly soul or from the animal soul, but our true essence is the G-dly soul. Our identity in reality is divine!
This was Nosson, he lived the majestic life of the Tanya, from it he learnt how to change oneself, and to look at the core of every person, he didn’t look for the evil behind their mask; he saw the shining soul!
We had the privilege to spend many years with our paradigm “Tanya Jew”. Let’s learn from him and make it our priority to emulate him. Set aside time every day or week to study the Tanya. Don't learn it as an academic study; rather learn it as your life’s guide. It will change yourself and your family, and thereby change the world.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Thank you for putting up this site!
I too will always remember Nosson's electrifying smile. As Sholomo Hamelech says: "Tov Lev Mishteh Tomid." "To a good-hearted person, life is always a celebration!" That was Nosson.
I have shared many of the stories about Nosson Notta with my children and it has made such an impressionable impact on them. The stories have encouraged them to have more Ahavas Yisroel, and I can already see how the stories have refined their midos. Not to mention they have given the kids a chayus for learning and Yidishkeit in general.
Just last night before they went to sleep they asked, "Can you tell us a story of Nosson Notta?" as if they were asking for a Baal Shem Tov story!
Indeed, Nosson is a Baal Shem Tov in our time.
Nosson changed my life forever. I met Nosson through Rabbi Mendel Cunin, to study Tanya once or twice weekly. Over the months we became close friends. Every word of his, his joyous approach to life, his passion for Torah and mitzvas, among many other beautiful things, inspired and will always continue to inspire me to push myself to take on more mitvahs and strive to continue the path he made for so many of us.
Thank you Nosson, I am just one of so many who had the high honor of an experience with you.
Either seeing him, talking with him by phone, or merely exchanging phone and text messages with him had such a fundamental, foundational, inspirational, and lifelong impact on my life. And I'm sure there are so many more like me.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
It was an honor knowing him…
Amongst the Mashpi’im, friends and family members who addressed the crowd were Nosson’s brother Rabbi Mendy Deitsch (who flew in specially for the event), Rabbi Mendy Shapiro Mashpia in the Yeshivah, and Jack, one of the people Nosson used to visit on Mivtzoim every Friday during his time in LA. The various speakers spoke about Nosson’s special, always upbeat and enthusiastic attitude, his tremendous Ahavas Yisroel, his Hasmodeh in learning, his dedication and desire to give Nachas Ruach to the Rebbe, and the need for us all to learn from him – “veha’chai yitein el liboi”.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
It’s been more then 31 days since you left us.
I'm standing here felling chilly, a soft wind is floating against my back, and the air is whistling its silent melody. Your face constantly flashes before me; my eyes - too numb too cry - constantly blink. My vision of your transient smile makes me feel close to you. My brain cells twitch in agony thinking about what was supposed to be, what could have been, but my conscious rational reminds me “what is”.
Are we supposed to answer why? Could we answer why?
Are we supposed to continue as if nothing peculiar occurred? Could we continue as if nothing peculiar occurred?
I remember telling you "silence is bliss", to which you responded "דאגה בלב־איש ישחנה", (Anxiety in a man's heart weighs it down, But a good word makes it glad.). so I will let my fingers rattle at the Keyboard, and ill tell you my thoughts.
I know what you want, “Chazak Veamats”, you want us to charge! Take over and roll, make it happen, hold faith and keep out heads high, Learning, Davening, Mivztoyim etc…,
But please listen to this story:
Shortly after the passing of the Friediker Rebbe, the Rebbe held a Farbreingen. Opening the Farbreingenthe Rebbe related that:
The Friedilker rebbe once told over at a Farbreingen: Before R' Levi Yitzchik from Bardichev, passed away, he said to his students "There were numerous Tzadikim who promised before they passed on, that they would not enter heaven, before Moshiach comes. (Thereby causing a commotion in heaven, hence G-D would have to send Moshiach”). But when they fed them a little “heavenly sugar” (spirituality), they could not hold themselves back, and they entered Gan Eden. But said R’ Levi Yitzchok, they won’t fool me”.
The Friediker Rebbe then said that, when R’ Levi Yitzchok arrived in heaven, they said “Kiddusha”, and R’ Levi Yitzchok as well jumped into heaven.
The Rebbe thus concluded:
“Since the freddiker rebbe knew this story and told it over, he obliviously will not be fooled”!
After 3 tammuz we constantly think about the Rebbe and this story!
Nosson I know you can and will do it!
Yes we promise to do all we can, but on your part, help us do it together. Let’s bring Moshiach, with our “Kochos” down here, and your "Kochos" above.
We miss you
We love you
We need you!
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
In Staten Island there was a seder to learn Gemorah Ligersah and get tested three blat at a time, when we came to the end of (I think) Perek Hamekebel in Boveh Metziah he was challenged to learn around fifteen blatt. He was promised a set of seforim if he would be able to Chazer the whole Perek – shakleh vetaryeh – straight. Nosson jumped at the challenge and he poshet spent hours horruving away. Thursday nights he would sit and chazer late into the night with unwavering concentration. There was no way to shake or distract him from his tremendous Ibergegbenkeit and Hasmodeh. Nosson was an unstoppable force, once he decided to do something he did it all the way and didn’t give up. His efforts paid off and from his example many bochurim joined in, to the extent that a whole new tenuah was started and a lot of bochurim ended up learning eight perokim of Boveh Metezia Baal Peh.
This whole Koch was Nisoirer through Nosson’s example alone, he was the hartz and the fire of the whole yeshivah. He turned the whole Yeshivah around, he would sit in his place with a tremendous Shtarkeit and would not let anyone disturb him, no Devorim Beteilim, no nothing! Even though he didn’t have the quickest and sharpest head, his Yegieh paid off and he amassed a wide spectrum of Yedies, beyond that of an average bochur – Nosson’s knowledge didn’t come easily but through sweat and toil. He exemplified Shkidah Ve’hasmodah, which was his central focus and was placed before all other inyonim, but also in anything else he displayed the same strength and will power, everything he did was permeated with rare enthusiasm and effort. When he learnt you could see how he would fight to keep focused, and wave away any distractions. Whatever he did, he poshut fought to move forward despite the difficulties that he often faced.
His Hasmodeh in those days was poshut unbelievable, I clearly remember how he would run down to the dining room to eat very quickly and then rush back up, wasting almost no time. Chaim Lerman reminded me of how Nosson used to make two coffees every morning, he would drink one before he began learning Tanya Baal Peh in the morning and the other he would leave on the side to be drunk before Seder Chassidus began – by which time it was obviously cold. Chaim asked him why he doesn’t just make one and then make a second one before Chassidus, to which Nosson answered that he didn’t want to take the time to make another trip downstairs and would rather drink cold coffee than waste a few precious moments of learning!
Every three weeks in Staten Island we would get a Shabbos off. Most of the yeshivah would generally go home on Thursday night, but at a certain point Nosson decided that instead of going home we should sit and learn a whole night, go on Mivtzoim in the morning, and only then go home for Shabbos. Nosson started this with only a couple of bochurim and eventually it turned into a big group of bochurim who would sit and learn for hours into the night all because of Nosson’s inspiration. This turned out to be one of the greatest successes of that year.
We were Chavrusahs in Shiur Beis and half of Shiur Gimel, I cannot forget how Nosson would be there right at the beginning of Seder and started learning with a tremendous Chayus, he didn’t let us start learning new material until we had first Chazered yesterday’s material. I remember that there were times in the day that I was not in the mood of learning, or I had too much material to Chazer and I was getting lazy, and I would look across zal, where Nosson sat and learnt without the slightest interruption – for hours straight he would shokel over a sefer – and that would inspire me to emulate him. Nosson’s example gave us a great amount of chayus and hasmodah, injecting a tremendous life into to the whole yeshiva. When I think about it, I realize that every major Inyen which happened while we were in Staten Island, started from Nosson – like I said before he was the hartz and the fire which got the whole yeshivah going.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Many people are saying excellent and amazing things, stories etc. about my extraordinary roommate, I want to just mention to you something about Nosson which I'm pretty sure you don't know, there's lots more I have to say but this is something special.
Most people have their "click" meaning their friends who their close with, guys talk and befriend many people but generally speaking everyone has "their guys", that when they need to talk to someone, need advice or help they know they can call.
On a daily basis I would here Nosson on the phone with all those people that DIDN'T have a "click" or with some old classmate who is a working bochur and had no social life... Nosson was on the phone daily with them.
All the time these guys would come to Florida to visit, and I'm saying the truth here, before they would check in to their hotel they were in yeshiva, it was something like they felt they had to see the person who really cared about them, and only after getting that famous massive smile from Nosson were they able to continue to the hotel.
When I was at the levaya and at the farbrengen we made the night of the levaya, all those classmates of mine that I haven't spoken to in years... they were very hurt, crying, and just like me, they felt that they lost their BEST friend..... Who will they talk to now? Who will they turn to for advice? When they need that listening ear who will they call?
Just wanted to share that extra ahavas yisrael that Nosson had and I don't know anyone who can match that.
This is a story that i vividly remember that shows the fun loving life that was Nosson's, it was 2 summers ago when Nosson was a head waiter in Gan Yisrael Parksville, it was Color War and Nosson being an obvious figure in camp was made a L.T. general, now if you know Nosson his part in Color War was always the Chayus dept., making sure every kid lost his voice by the end of Color War! But when it came to writing the script or a leading role in the plays, that he left for others.
So as we are sitting half way through his team's play, you can imagine my surprise when the scene opens up and in walks Nosson. now these type of plays are usually serious drama plays (at least we try to make them that way), so when Nosson walked into that bar scene i didn't know what to expect, and let me tell you NOSSON TOOK FUNNY AND CRAZY TO A WHOLE OTHER LEVEL! He was supposed to be a drunk in a bar and you bet he was, he was screaming, jumping, braking table and chair props that guys worked hours on making! I was crying from laughter, the judges didn't know what to make of it whether to give extra points for the comedy or take off points because he practically ruined the whole drama of the play! And forget about the other actors in the scene no one paid any attention to what was actually going on in the play.
All in all Nosson gave everyone a good laugh, and that’s what he was all about making sure to have the best time where ever it may be (even if it meant making a serious play, funny).
And that’s what I miss most about Nosson, when everybody else was worn out and tired he just had the energy to go on forever!
Funny Crazy times will never be the same without him.
I attend the Chabad House run by Nosson's brother Rabbi Shaya Deitsch in Montgomery County, Pennsylvania. I have had the pleasure of meeting many of the Rabbi's brothers and sisters. While all of the Rabbi's family are wonderful people, Nosson will always be my favorite. He was so easy-going and joyful and full of life. When I arrived at the Rabbis for Friday night dinner or walked into the room where we held Shabbat services, if Nosson happened to be visiting, it made my day. An ear-to-ear grin spread across my face. We just joked and laughed and I was happy as long as he was there.
If the purpose of Chabad is to provide warmth and light to all Jews, then for me Nosson lived that purpose. He emanated the joy that one can receive only from a Jewish brother and friend. He embodied the charm, warmth and openness that distinguishes a Chabad Rabbi or Yeshiva student. When he was around I could appreciate the moment, feel totally joyful at Shabbat dinner or synagogue. He made me feel the joy of being a Jew. I will miss him so.
A more recent memory which exemplifies Nosson's Mivtzoyim habits was this year the second Shabbos Chanukah, Nosson and a few friends of mine from Yeshiva came to spend Shabbos with me here in Bal Harbour, 5 minutes before Licht Bentchen when every one was getting out of (or getting in) the shower and getting dressed, Nosson was standing on my porch without his shirt, when he saw this fellow walking down the street with worn out clothes and briefcase on his back, (he looked like a real Shnurer) so he screams at this guy excuse me are you Jewish, to which the guy replied yes!, so he screams wait a second am coming down, he runs out of the apt and he brings this guy upstairs, he put on Teffilin with him then prepared a Menorah for the guy to light, which the guy lit for the first time in who knows how many years.
Turns out this fellow learnt in Landau Yeshiva over 30 years ago and since been through some really tough patches in his life, this guy was on his way to catch the bus to the casino to gamble and to do who knows what else, when Noson shleped him in to my apt. to put on Teffilin and light the Menorah with him, that was Nosson doing mivtzoyim in a time and place, when other people would "be too busy" doing other things, and with a person that any regular guy would not even look at, never mind approach, Nosson was there for him.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
When we need someone to cheer us up?
When we need someone to learn with a guy getting closer to Judaism?
When we need someone to care?
When we need to tell you someone is feeling down and you need to cheer him up?
When we walk into Zal to get inspiration?
When we have a question on Tanya?
When we really want to have some fun?
And the list goes on...............
It’s been already three weeks since this tragic and untimely passing, the void is still there and cannot be filled, are hearts are empty, and our mouths are dry, are heads cannot think and emotions are suppressed, Nosson we really miss you!
Friday, May 21, 2010
I was astounded at a Sicha I learnt this week, divine providence couldn't have led me better. The Rebbe goes on to relate, that though the Jews received the torah on Mt. Sinai, it was still incomplete. Only after mosses’ father in law Yisro, sanctified g-d, by saying "baruch ata hashem", was the torah fully completed.
How can it be, the Rebbe asks, that the sacred and remarkable gift from heaven was only completed, when a “priest” of other paganism deity’s, blessed g-d!??
The answer: Hashem was teaching us a meditation. Just stare out and be overwhelmed at Yisro, a man who was an idol worshiper, priest, and philosopher, who had all the greatest men of his time bowing at his alter, of whom didn't believe in Hashem, and yet then after all the great miracles g-d did for the Jews, he didn’t coward into his home of worship, NO! He believed in Hashem, even coming to the dessert to observe him and bless him.
This was Nosson he did what he believed, not cowering behind the mask of humility. He had a love and passion and brought it out in truth, every step of the way.
I once tried to try to explain someone the way Nosson learned, he was so engrossed in his the learning, he was oblivious to everything else, but the "Taz or Shach"!
In every Mamer he learned, how to fully live with it.
May we be able to take from the lessons he taught us, the strength to continue doing Nosson’s mission to make this world a better place, and bring moshiach.
May we all accept the Torah BSIMCHA UBEPNIMIOUS! Good yom tov.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
I came to know Nosson through Lubavitch of Montgomery County, where my family worships with Nosson's brother Shaya. In recent months, Nosson and I had begun to speak and correspond about Tanya. The following is an excerpt from an email Nosson wrote to me not two weeks before we lost him:
"What is an angel? According to Jewish philosophy, the term "angel" can be used for many different areas. Regarding Chapter 40 of Tanya, the Alter Rebbe is telling us: Don't think that when you pray, it is just some people singing, getting together. It is a lot deeper than that. When we pray, even if it is done without the correction intentions, then we are creating angels. Just like when someone will think about a theory, he will be creating certain ideas, certain visions in his head. Through prayer we are creating angels, energy, above in the higher worlds. Their chomer vetzurah (mass and form) is a lot more refined than in our world, a lot less materialistic than in this world. But that is the awesome thing. We have the power, through our prayer, to create things. And create healing."
I can't help but feel that if any young man had prepared himself for the journey he is now making, it is Nosson. But those of us who are left behind will miss him deeply.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
I was privileged, to spend many years together with Nosson,
When I reflect on all the memories, the times we spoke together, laughed together, and learned together, I constantly smile, he so so full of vigor and passion.
In camp, he always encouraged the bunk to strive to win best bunk. In school, he always topped the list of most learned by heart. When at his home, he showed me how to be a true Chossid.
With his honest remarks, and helpful insights, I became, he changed the way our class, thought, talked, played, and learned.
He was our leader, and we loved following him.
when we were in trouble, he didn't ask if there was anything he could do, he just thought something up and did it!, he didn't ask be your friend, he just was your friend. He was the ensample of "A beautiful heart".
One particular story flashes in my mind: It was after Purim, and everybody came to school, with all their "Nosh", showing off all the "grub" we accumulated during our Purim escapade. Some boys for one reason or another didn't have any snack's, Nosson without even blinking an eye, pulled his sweets out of his backpack, and proceeded to give them all out, excusing himself saying "I'm really not a big candy eater"!, this was in elementary!, we would go crazy over candy. When I saw it I couldn't believe it, It effected me very deeply.
May the Oibeshter please hear our cries, and bring Moshiach Now!
Monday, May 17, 2010
During the conference call we were asked to focus on two of Nossons unique qualities Tanya and ahavas yisroel the following are my personal experiences.
Let’s face it – it’s not easy to sit down and write an article about the life of a close friend, who was snuffed away from us at the age of 21. These things are reserved for 80/90 year olds. However, being that you asked, here it is.
2 years ago on Pesach Merkos shlichus in Russia, we visited the kevarim of the Rebbeim in Lubavitch. While trudging through the mud back to the bus, I was fortunate to be alongside Nosson for this strenuous hike. Nosson was chazering tanya the entire way back. One of the many lessons our Chazal teach is “Kinas Sofrim Tarbe Chochma” – Envy of the learned increases wisdom” (Baba Basra 21b). I was humbled by his areinvarfen zich, to the extent that the year I spent in LA Mesivta on shlichus was infused with a newfound appreciation for Tanya. This propelled us to arrange a “mivtza limud hatanya”, which lasted the entire year with much success B”h.
When Nosson’s father passed away in the summer of 5766, I was a counselor in CGI Morristown. I came in for Shabbos to Crown Heights, and went Sunday to be Menachem Avel. Although I had thought that I would have to be the one comforting him, and being that I was never his classmate, not knowing exactly how and what to say, he was the one to make me feel comfortable the way only Nosson knows how.
This brings to mind a story I recently heard, of a forest which played host to a competition. All of the animals would have a turn to display their vocal talent, and whoever would sing the loudest would be crowned king of the forest. As the contest wore on, it became evident that the lion had roared the loudest of them all. As the judges readied themselves to crown him their king, a little squeaky voice piped up – a little bird, demanding his chance to compete. The rest of the animals in the forest began to laugh at his request, “There is no way he can be louder than the lion,” they chuckled. With no choice, they conceded to his claim. As the little bird began to chirp, his little squeaky voice began to get louder and steadier, until the entire forest was ringing from his song. The judges conferred, and pronounced him the undisputed king of the forest. When confronted “How did you do it?”, he began with a smile. “It was simple. Before I got up to sing, I had all of my bird friends situate themselves throughout the forest. As soon as I started to chirp, they all joined in, and together we achieved the victory over the lion.”
Nosson is that little bird. He has begun to chirp. We, his friends, are situated throughout the world. We must carry on what he has started, and when we work together, with the power of achdus we can and will complete Nosson’s mission, culminating with the coming of Moshiach, bimheira beyameinu mamash.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
I only met Nosson once or twice, and never had the privilege of getting to know him well. But the impact of a couple of quick meetings was immense.
Nosson was a ball of energy, a light in whatever room he was in. I was somewhat awed by his sincere exuberance and bursting love of life and his fellow man - I don't think his love of others was confined only to his fellow Jews. He reminded me of all the ways the ideals of my youth have been worn and battered as I've grown older and fought the battles of life...and his reminding me of that was and is a very Good Thing. Because his mere presence for a couple of brief periods of my life was a clarion call to reconnect with my ideals and listen more to them than to all the things that would have me compromise them.
Nosson was one of the truly good people that we very badly need more of. I do not know G-d's reasons, and I do not question them, but I do know that the world is a darker place for his absence.