Every time I think about "life" an image of Nosson comes to my head, someone who lived life to its fullest extent. I still cannot comprehend or cope with Nosson's image and the opposite of life, I had the zechus to spend my year of shlichus with Nosson. When there was a bad day we came crying to Nosson when I had a good joke and no one else would laugh, I knew I can come to Nosson to make me feel good, and he never asked for anything in return completely selfless! this past year we would speak at least twice a month (and that is a lot for me who is horrible at keeping in touch with people) at every given opportunity he would tell me "... you have to start learning with this baal habus and make sure that this bachur is doing well etc.. I just want to share the last conversation I had with him. I accepted upon myself the task of being a head staff member in a gan yisroel (with Nosson approval of course!) due to lack of space it was impossible to accept all the applicants, about two weeks ago I get a call from Nosson "make sure you accept ... to camp" anyone who knows Nosson knows that you cannot say no to Nosson he just wouldn't hear no for an answer a few days ago I replied to him that the boy was accepted (before i even told the boy himself) Nosson I am happy I was able to fulfill your last request to me please make a shturem up there you know how to do it better than anyone even hashem can't say no to you! i am laughing and crying together, I know you don't want anyone to be sad for you but sometimes it is too hard..