It’s been more then 31 days since you left us.
I'm standing here felling chilly, a soft wind is floating against my back, and the air is whistling its silent melody. Your face constantly flashes before me; my eyes - too numb too cry - constantly blink. My vision of your transient smile makes me feel close to you. My brain cells twitch in agony thinking about what was supposed to be, what could have been, but my conscious rational reminds me “what is”.
Are we supposed to answer why? Could we answer why?
Are we supposed to continue as if nothing peculiar occurred? Could we continue as if nothing peculiar occurred?
I remember telling you "silence is bliss", to which you responded "דאגה בלב־איש ישחנה", (Anxiety in a man's heart weighs it down, But a good word makes it glad.). so I will let my fingers rattle at the Keyboard, and ill tell you my thoughts.
I know what you want, “Chazak Veamats”, you want us to charge! Take over and roll, make it happen, hold faith and keep out heads high, Learning, Davening, Mivztoyim etc…,
But please listen to this story:
Shortly after the passing of the Friediker Rebbe, the Rebbe held a Farbreingen. Opening the Farbreingenthe Rebbe related that:
The Friedilker rebbe once told over at a Farbreingen: Before R' Levi Yitzchik from Bardichev, passed away, he said to his students "There were numerous Tzadikim who promised before they passed on, that they would not enter heaven, before Moshiach comes. (Thereby causing a commotion in heaven, hence G-D would have to send Moshiach”). But when they fed them a little “heavenly sugar” (spirituality), they could not hold themselves back, and they entered Gan Eden. But said R’ Levi Yitzchok, they won’t fool me”.
The Friediker Rebbe then said that, when R’ Levi Yitzchok arrived in heaven, they said “Kiddusha”, and R’ Levi Yitzchok as well jumped into heaven.
The Rebbe thus concluded:
“Since the freddiker rebbe knew this story and told it over, he obliviously will not be fooled”!
After 3 tammuz we constantly think about the Rebbe and this story!
Nosson I know you can and will do it!
Yes we promise to do all we can, but on your part, help us do it together. Let’s bring Moshiach, with our “Kochos” down here, and your "Kochos" above.
We miss you
We love you
We need you!